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We are at the balance point of light and dark again. The inner world communicating with the outer world. Finding the nurturing flow between giving and receiving, between active and intuitive states of being. Where are you, with your inner balance? Do you need more of the doing or more of the listening?  Photo: selfie in the Mother Forest As the autumn rolled along and my schedule got more busy, it became clear to me that I was heading towards exhaustion... AGAIN! Just after having gathered back my strength during the summer when I was not working. Even though I definitely should know better... Still. Feeling the overwhelm creeping in. It can be very challenging to be highly sensitive. It requires CONSTANT listening, going within, connecting with nature, giving yourself a break. On all levels. While you are still alive and breathing!  PHOTO: Mimi and Mama playing on the kitchen table. This gets highlighted even more for me as a mother of a 5 year old. She needs me being fully present in her life. Playing with Mimi can be such a wild ride into the realms of pure imagination! It can create the most amazing situations, where profound ideas get spontaneously presented. This moment above, with the withered calendulas, the skeleton and the dinosaur captured something essential for me, about the short time frame we humans have in this life...  PHOTO: The other side of the river in Mother Forest To honour myself, completely, just as I am, I have been taking time off even when feeling it to be counterintuitive, when 'not having the time' for it. Because this precious connection I have with my soul's wisdom and with nature is more important than anything. It nurtures me, inspires me, sustains me. Without this sacred connection, I am only partly present. Without honouring my sensitivity I cannot truly, fully be who I am. Nature is a source of healing connection for me. In nature, I walk in a state of wonder and awe. Magic starts to feel very real and I feel supported and loved by Mother Earth, Mama Gaia, our home, this planet.
Can you relate? Do you honour your core essence, your deepest needs, enough? Could you take better, loving care of yourself? What would your body, your inner knowing, ask of you? Could you answer it's call and be the one who loves you the most? Take a moment to listen within as you receive this Equinox Vocal Blessing. May you shed what needs to be released. May you welcome what is asking to arrive. May you find peace and joy in this journey called life! I am right here with you, in spirit, as a human, on this path of constant change.
For your Inner Peace, Balance and JOY, Meri Irindira
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As I write this, it is raining very very hard. Water is pouring from the sky, as if my house was under a water fall. Purifying, nurturing, healing rain! It reflects my inner state of being. After a very dry summer, a pause in the flow, I feel born anew! For several months I was called to be close to home and simply be. To simply BE. It takes courage to simply be, to surrender, to drop everything you are 'supposed to' do, in order to really REALLY let go. And then, you will have the chance to be born again into the next version of you.  PHOTO: Precious Balance Walk in Malmö, SWEDEN by Felicia Konrad Things have started flowing to and through me in a more peaceful, fulfilling and meaningful way! One beautiful project I have been involved with recently is a film, 'Precious Balance Walk' with a group of individual performing artist, who each create a ritual for healing the waters. In Malmö, the very Southern point of Sweden (over the sea, you can see Copenhagen!) I was interacting directly with the sea, through my voice and movement, merging with it. This was deeply inspiring experience that took my work as a healing artist to a new level.  PHOTO: Precious Balance Walk Video Still (Film Camera: Benjamin Zadig) As the forests are burning around the world and the floods and storms rage on Planet Earth, I have become increasingly aware of my role in it all. WE ALL need to start taking a stand and living in alignment with our true values. Is your mind, heart, body and soul all supporting each other, walking on the same path? We are being asked to examine ourselves, our motives for doing things, our emotions, our state of being within. It is increasingly important for me to connect directly with the Earth. Becoming aware of our intimate connection with nature. Immersing myself in water, warm or cold. Looking deep into my inner state of being: what does it reflect to me? How do I deal with my inner turmoil? Do I take responsibility for my part in every interaction, even when feeling like someone else is to blame? We cannot hide anymore, not from ourselves, not from earth other - not from the world.  With new depth and conviction, I am inviting you to start treating your inner world, your body, mind and soul as a microcosm that reflects the greater whole. How can you treat your world better? We need to wake up to a clearer understanding of the interconnectedness of everything. And instead of letting the turmoil take us down and lose hope, WE MUST RISE IN OUR POWER and become even more committed to being the change we want to see in the world. Step by step. Realisation by realisation. Your courage inspiring courage in others. I have connected to many amazing new people recently and I can truly say that I believe positive change is possible! Let's join forces and create a world wide web of healing, what ever it is that you do. I am deeply committed. Are you with me? Sending you infinite courage and gentle self love. From my Ocean to Yours, Meri Irindira It seems that many of us are still going through challenging times. This has definitely been true for me, as the overwhelm that had been building up, finally got to me and burned me out. This might seem strange, as I have been going after my dreams and living pretty uncompromisingly - which in my view should lead me to true freedom and deep sense of happiness!  However, there has been a sense of needing to be EVEN MORE truthful to my deepest desires. There has still been some fear lurking around, pushing me into trying too hard, instead of simply TRUSTING that the path will clear as I gently walk on. All that is not in alignment with our highest purpose is being released, for those who seek truth within themselves. When burning out, we are forced into absolute rest and silence. From this unexpected call to enter yet another cocooning phase (oh, never expected that there would be the need for this now!!) some delightful new discoveries has been made. For me this means opening the doors to some Secret Gardens within I have not fully allowed to become visible yet!  I am coming back to honouring my extremely sensitive nature. There has still been that inner expectation that I should be doing more, trying harder, working more hours to 'make it' as an artist and healer, make a product out of who I am. It feels like what it sounds like... very very hard. I simply cannot function from this frame of mind. In order to feel at peace I must, ALWAYS, come back in alignment with my Sacred Nature. And then, ONLY then, move forward with true joy and deep love for WHAT IS.  At the same time, the devastation is still spreading across the Earth, our home. There are those who do not recognise the damage we are doing to our home, Mama Gaia, Planet Earth. There are STILL those who are blinded by their greed and short sightedness. Some in very powerful positions. This brings me to my other renewed dedication - to work even more closely WITH NATURE, to make my creative and healing arts intertwined with the living connection to the Earth. The elements, trees, plants, living organisms. Humans as a part of that web of life, not separate from it.  Being the Queen of my own Existence, I invite you to reign YOUR own inner Queendom! We don't need to fight for material possessions or power. While we can gracefully receive all that we need, (when not living in direct state of emergency!), we can simply love and appreciate WHAT IS. No matter how fragile you might feel at times, there is great beauty and strength in your very being. Nature connects me with a sense of overflowing abundance and pleasure. This gentle connection aligns me with my true values and let's so much of the unnecessary burdens simply fall away. Connect with nature in any way that is easy for you. Dance for no reason. Let life itself move you! Release your overwhelmed mind. Awaken to the simple sense of wonder. Take a moment to simply be. Breathing with you. In silence, in movement, in sadness and pure joy, Meri  PAINTING: Path of the Promise, Pirkko Mäkelä-Haapalinna Somehow this world we live in never felt so very real to me. As I was a child, I was observing, wondering, making my own conclusions. Often, not feeling like I really belong here. This feeling has followed me through out my life. Feeling like an outsider in most situations, not really knowing how to be a human in today's world. Being a deeply fragile human being is a beautiful, yet such a challenging experience. No matter how powerful we might feel at times, it is inherent in the human experience to be fragile. We start out as helpless, tiny babies - and we all die, no matter how strong or successful we might have been at some point in our lives. We live constantly between worlds. When I started allowing the spiritual world to take more space in my every day existence, things started shifting. Sense of DEEP BELONING started to replace the feelings of being an outsider. Becoming aware of my energetic, spiritual essence has made it easier to have gentle compassion towards the transient nature of being human.  PAINTING: World Making by Pirkko Mäkelä-Haapalinna For me being a 'spiritual being having a human experience' is a continuos journey of courage and expansion. A journey into deepening compassion and understanding. And yet, never arriving to a specific destination. It is an every day awakening. It is a process of accepting all the human flaws, mistakes and everything we don't really want to acknowledge as a part of who we are. It is a process of embracing all of the shortcomings, the pain and the vulnerability and loving yourself, no matter what. No matter how desperate you might feel at times, no matter how deeply hurtful you might have been towards yourself - and other's. Being spiritual being having a human experience is about accepting that it is challenging for us all and even though we might have moments of great peace, bliss and pure alignment, there will always be moments when the human parts of us cry out their pain. And we must hold ourselves. We must cradle and caress all of those part of ourselves. As only with love will those parts start letting go. Only by loving ourselves through the humanness can we resurrect ourselves into wholeness. I invite you to take a journey into greater self love with me. Tomorrow we will start the very first Art Meditation - 7 Day Experience. It has been deeply thrilling and often a truly blissful process of creation! Diving deep into the paintings of Pirkko Mäkelä-Haapalinna and letting my Vocal Blessings move through my whole being, has been a transformational journey for me. Have a look, take a minute to watch this short trailer and if you feel called to participate, join me in this deep dive through the mystery into greater peace. Hold your human self close. Bless your sweet, gentle essence with all the kindness and love you can allow in. It is a precious process of de-conditioning lifetimes of hurt. It is a journey of allowing yourself to resurrect, to rise anew, to face the hardships and shortcomings of your human self and still, always, allow a new beginning to birth yourself again and again. As long as you live. With love, Meri ...or the journey of becoming who you truly are. It has become more and more important for me recently to practice the art of being who I truly am. It has become one of my main values: to be as authentic as possible.  This seemingly simple idea has many layers. There are some secrets and deep challenges embedded into it. What does it even mean, you might ask, to be MORE of who you are - are you not being yourself already..? Yes. Yes you are, already being you! I am who I am. However, we are multilayered beings and many of those layers we might not even be aware of. Layers of social conditioning, what has been expected of us. There are layers of the culture we are born into. Ideals of a good life, concepts and structures that have shaped us and how we respond to the world around us. Who we truly are, then, becomes a little trickier to define! For me it has felt like peeling layer after layer of expectations that I have had for myself. Expectations based on how I have seen myself and the surrounding world. Finding new ways to see this shared reality, I am opening more and more for living in a constant state of unfolding. I believe we live in a giant sphere of mystery. The most fascinating layers of 'who I am', for me, are those that exist beyond the social conditioning. Layers that connect me directly with the Earth and with the Cosmic Energies, with the past, present and the future of who I am and who I have been in a deeper way. I believe our intuitive guidance has a much bigger view on our lives and the workings of this world than what our minds are able to grasp. Through our minds we are able to make some theories but it is only a limited glimpse into the huge mystery of life in all the galaxies. We are tiny creatures in the grander view of the surrounding universe. Then, what is it, to be a human? Being in a state of transformation, letting the intuitive knowing come through to guide the way. Living in the state of wonder and unfolding. It has given me such a deep sense of purpose and belonging, here on Earth, in this Universe. I believe it is time for us all to connect more intimately with our inner voice, our intuitive knowing. Through these turbulent times it is really the most precious guidance system we have! Through our inner knowing we find a sense of belonging. Would you like to get more deeply connected with your inner world, your inner voice? I would love to go on this journey of discovery and reconnection together with you! It has been my passion to let more and more healing frequencies come through my voice and now I want to guide you into using YOUR VOICE as a tool of reconnection and energy healing.  On Sunday 3.3. we are starting a 21-day The Power of Your Voice - challenge and you are warmly invited to join! Each day you will receive a 5-10min video that is your practice. Your investment is 33€. Ask your inner knowing if this is for you and trust that voice. My deepest wish for you is to find YOUR PATH of highest knowing and least resistance. It is a challenging but beautiful experience to be here as humans and I want to celebrate this life with all it's juicy variety. Much love to you on this Super Sunny February day! May Your Uniqueness Shine Bright. Meri Listening to your inner voice is a lot like finding traces in the snow and deciding to follow them. It is about being open to receive guidance. Trusting the messages and staying in a state of wonder.  Using the same snowmobile track as a pathway: a hare, a deer, me and who else? The little forest next to our house is full of life. There are many visitors that come to us. The biggest guests I have started to receive more regularly are MOOSE. Yes... there are moose that walk around our house, taking a little bite here and there, of the surrounding trees. It is a rather majestic sight, those huge animals, leisurely walking around and about! (They come in the safety of the dark, so no photos to share, unfortunately). As I have been admiring the increasing number of animals and their traces, sometimes bringing clear messages, the realisation came to me: in a sense, I am pathfinder. I am here to share the guidance I am receiving, so that many more would find the courage to follow to their own intuition. I am here to encourage you to honour your inner voice, to truly, deeply listen and let your inner knowing guide you. I am here to walk with you into the unknown.  Embraced and protected by the forest. Close your eyes, take a few deep breaths and let this VOCAL BLESSING for 2019 move through you: Let these frequencies speak to YOUR SOUL. What awakens within you?  The guardian trees next to my house. It is beautiful to know that we are connected with supportive energies far beyond our limited understanding! Even though our minds might not be able to grasp how this all works, we can intuitively know. As we connect with our multilayered self the perspective gets wider and the sense of inner peace increases, even in the face of the unknown. IF you want to read the Intuitive Message for 2019 and DOWNLOAD the Vocal Blessing, you are welcome to join my mailing list or contact me directly! I listen to the Vocal Blessing daily and read the message regularly, to keep on track. It is designed to align you with your Core Essence as well as the energies highlighted this year. It connects you with a deeper sense of purpose and gives greater clarity on what you need to focus on, to stay in alignment with your purest essence. Stay open to receive, let the path be revealed to you. From this empowered space within, you are creating new realities for yourself and others in this world. Your uniqueness is a gift, embrace it, embody it, live it true! Meri '' I am committed to letting more and more CLARITY arrive into my life as I connect with the PURITY of who I TRULY AM. I PLAYFULLY honour life and the surprises that make it whole. As serious as it is, it's not that serious.''  Selfie with real snow and fake sparkles ;) This year has had a refreshing feel of newness to it for me!! Somehow... there seems to truly be a New Beginning, something I have been preparing for since a few years now. I want to show up even more fully with the gifts I have to share. It is becoming so clear now, how we are here to accelerate each other's processes, to support, encourage and embrace each other through the often challenging times on Planet Earth. What feels important for you in this year we have just started? Is something calling you, to step up, to be more of yourself, to speak YOUR TRUTH and live it fully?  Welcoming 2019 through a snowstorm ❄ Photo: Johanna Salmi / Visit SeaLapland The first quote above is part of my New Year's message that I received for 2019. Surprisingly, I received very 'simple' words for the year! Clarity... Purity... Playfulness. They are asking me to commit even deeper with my inner truth, my soul's true calling. And yet... to remain light about it! To be both Solemnly Committed as well as Lighthearted. To be Fiercely Honest as well as Accepting of Differences. To be Raw and Real and yet... have a silly laugh about it all!! For me, to be truly FREE, I need to be able to embrace both birth and death, religion and new age, the beauty and the beast of me. I can be both wildly crazy as well as profoundly delicate. And so... it is. And so I am. Sharing part of a process I am working on, with a visual artist, Pirkko Mäkelä-Haapalinna, whose work resonates with me strongly. Through our collaboration, I am going deep into the themes of religion, what it has meant for people (women!) through the ages and how we commit to things, both human and divine. With Pirkko deeper questions are allowed to exist. The very questions of our existence. The spaces within and between our first and last breath. The only thing people ever regret in the end, is living their life according to someone else's wishes. What is YOUR DREAM, what ever someone says or what you think you 'should' be going after? Let my voice guide you into the depths of who you are. (Get the coupon code for FREE DOWNLOAD by joining my mailing list) I am here to speak to your soul. To awaken the dream you have within you. Wishing you a reflective, inspired beginning of the year! Meri Blessings of Solstice and the Full Moon on the Darkest Night of the Year!  Mimi dressed as a Lucia on the 13th of December Guided by the Magical Moonlight, what to you feel magnetically pulled towards? What is calling you, your soul? This Full Moon is illuminating the darkest night of the year so that we can see even in the depths of darkness. It is a powerful time for facing your biggest fears, allowing the pain to surface so that we may release the intensity within. Breaking open to be re-discovered by ourselves. It is a time of releasing the past, finding gratitude in what has passed and listening within for the new to arise! It has been a very intense year for many, 2018. My experiences have been breaking me open time and time again. There has been continuous sense of unraveling who and what I am to recreate myself, over and over again. It has been very hard at times, but whenever I truly, TRULY drop in and listen to my soul's essence, there is always Gentle Grace to surrender into. If you have ever felt it all simply being too much, you are not alone. This breaking open to unravel and recreate is what is asked of us now. With a soft heart I am giving thanks to all the highs and lows, the bliss and the chaos of 2018. It has been an important year and more is being revealed to us as we continue on our journeys.  'Joulupukki' drawn by Mimi One of the guiding lights in my life is my amazing daughter Mimi. Almost every day there is a moment when I feel a sense of wonder, as sense of amazement of being her mother. The idea that I am a mother to someone... and that she would be such a glorious, brilliant, sweet and intelligent being! What a miracle! To end this year of revelations on a happier note, I share with you a picture of Santa that Mimi drew. Such a whimsical creature! Wishing you JOY of Being, Gentle Grace and a deep sense of Gratitude on this Holiday Season! If you want to start your year with Divine Inspiration and Personal Support, I have created a SOLSTICE SPECIAL for you! (Available until 6th January 2019.) With Love, Warm Heart and Radiant Soul, Meri Are you afraid of the dark? What does it represent for you? Have you ever considered that darkness could be healing or benevolent?  Me and and my dear friend, the forest. This year the darkening season hit me hard. I thought I had conquered my shadows and achieved some state of inner peace, but something felt off and I fell into a mild depression. My mind was confused: where was this coming from and why was I still experiencing this..?! Even though I have been in the process of honouring darkness and beginning to understand it's importance, there was more to discover. No matter how well we think we know our shadows... we rarely have truly faced all that there is to meet. And.... it is all a part of natural cycles of life! Not something to scare away from but to surrender into for deeper understanding a healing. It is about time we EMBRACE darkness as an important force for good.  Phosphorous glow of the lichen on the branches of these old trees. We need to balance the overpowering energies of continuous striving. Darkness is that feminine principle of non-doing. Pure presence. Being enough, saying: it is ENOUGH now. Enough of consuming, enough of 'making more' enough of believing that 'continuous growth' is an important value above all else. I invite you to start having a whole new relationship with darkness and all that it represents. Continuous striving is part of the sickness we face in our human world and it is hurting us as it is hurting the planet. We know this. And yet... it is hard to embrace that darkness as we have learned to fear it. We have learned to fear the feminine essence and make it 'less than' the masculine. We have been taught that only light is holy and healing. But most of the universe is dark matter. Darkness holds the seeds. In the womb it is dark as well. Darkness is nurturing, if we learn to let it be so and surrender into the healing it offers us.  No make up, no fancy clothes... I am enough as Mother Nature holds me. As a child I loved lying down in the dark of the winter, on the bed of snow, looking far into the starry skies. This filled me with pure wonder and happiness! Such a simple joy with such a profound effect. The snow with it's icy sparks... has always given me such a sense of wonder and magic. Listen within, take gentle care of yourself, celebrate both the light and the dark. We are balancing the energies here on Earth. For inspiration you, listen to my Vocal Blessing on FB: FULL MOON Vocal Blessing With love, sweet darkness and pure light, Meri You are always welcome to connect with me, soul to soul.
Schedule a FREE session with me HERE This autumn has gifted us with exceptionally glorious colours. It has felt like nature's way of filling us up with radiant beauty, bright coloured medicine to prepare us for the upcoming dark months. Nature is also celebrating the past season of growth and light. Treasuring the elixirs that sustain life. The trees turn their flow inwards - and let go. Gracefully, to become bare and silent again.  Autumn walk by the sea. This morning, walking back home after taking my daughter to her kindergarten, I felt the invitation to enter the forest right next to our house. I somehow haven't been there that much, as it is not so easy to enter. It is a bit of a wild thing, not very big, but no paths, lots of moss, untamed growth, tricky terrain. I have already felt grateful and blessed for having this forest as our neighbour, but this morning, I truly fell in love with her... It felt like entering another reality. Very natural and simple, yet so magical and full of variety.  Our forest friend, breathing right next to us. Since we moved here 1,5 years ago, I have felt a new era in my life beginning. So much has shifted and changed. Though I have been on this path for many years already, there is new depth I have been feeling into here. Time and time again, I have been guided to look closer, to receive the gifts already present. To look with profound appreciation and sense of discovery, even when in my own back yard.  My misty breath in the morning sun. My body felt wonderful, walking in the forest terrain, as it makes all the joints move more creatively than on a steady, flat ground. The scents of decay and hidden treasures. Wisdom of the trees, the intelligence of their communication that we have only now begun to understand. The healing effect of being connected with nature. Becoming more accepting of our own limitations, our cycles, our death as part of life. ''The wonder of birth. The mystery of death. Human life, cycle by cycle, around the sun. Opening. Closing. Circling into it's own fulfilment.''  Roses for the last goodbye. I wrote this poem as my farewell to someone I have know most of my life, a father of a really dear friend. He passed away pretty suddenly and was buried recently. On a beautiful autumn day, we gathered together to say our last goodbyes. To realise that life is a fleeting experience, is surprisingly easy to forget. In nature, tuning in with the changing seasons, we see life transforming right before our eyes. This constant transformation is our nature too. Invitation for humble understandings of the fragility of life. We are all growing together, aching together, longing together. Whether we are aware of it or not. Feeling into the depth of our collective human sorrow is healing, as we recognise each other's beauty through our fragility. Much love and a breath of fresh air from me and my forest friend, Meri You are always welcome to connect with me, soul to soul.
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