Complete Surrender, In Awe

And finally... the summer came! Even up here in the very North. What a relief, what a joy! And with it, a kaleidoscope of other emotions.  As life is catching up again, after a closed down spring, many of us are still in a rather vulnerable state. 

We have been opening up on a very deep level,
​to some new realisations about ourselves. 
There is such richness of life, with wide range of reactions.

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What is bubbling within you, now coming to the surface..?
​Are you allowing space for a greater expression of you,
​however that might look like? 

Life seems to be opening up but there is still a great sense of insecurity. We have learned that everything can change at an instant! If you didn't know that before, by now you will have a full experience of it, throughout your whole being. 

We are still asked to look within and stay very present to WHAT IS. Simply. Right here and now. Each moment. Even when making plans, being ready to drop them at a blink of an eye, should the situation require it. ​

As we are taking baby steps into a more open and active life (the baby in my belly nudging me from inside as I write this!) there is also a sense of awe. Sense of those new steps, wondering, if they will truly carry us, whether they will truly take us forward? Perhaps asking: Am I really able to just walk freely, as my true self, the one that I now have become..? 

It may have taken a long time for the ice to melt,
but we are reaching into the core, into the truth of who we are.
And the love that is there, beneath it all, is ready to be felt. 

I have been in this process of surrendering for many many years now. Most of the time I do live in that space within, where I can truly love myself, without leaving anything out. The good, the bad and the ugly. The beautiful and the overwhelming. Though it will always be a process of becoming, it is wonderful to embrace your fragile human self completely. 

And through this loving of the whole,
even stranger variations of gratitude can happen..! You see... 

When I went to my most special place, for the first time this year,
the Mother Forest and my little Meditation Chrysalis there,
this is what I saw:

Yes... ouch! It had totally collapsed... there had been so much snow this winter, in this remote forest, that this little cottage simply couldn't hold the weight and had to give in. Smashed. In complete surrender.

Sounds familiar..? It felt very symbolic to
what many of us have been going through this spring.
​Too much pressure. No choice but to surrender. 

But the awe-inspiring thing here is that NONE of the glass parts were broken! This structure is mostly windows and ALL of them were intact, including the few glass and porcelain items I had inside. Lying here, through the melting process of all that snow, collapsed, unprotected in the forest, since late March or early April, just when the Corona collapsed the societies... ​and yet, nothing was broken beyond repair. Only the structure itself had been destroyed. 

I saw my beloved Sacred Space shattered to pieces, but I felt more surprised and curious than anything else. Wow...!! That THIS should happen just now..?! 

And what more, you cannot really be angry at nature. Simply: lots of snow. Heavy weight. Surrender of human structures. No-one to blame or to feel hurt by. Just the nature of life itself playing out. And even more importantly, the nature around this little cottage was unharmed, of course. Simply being there, alive and well, living through the cycles of seasons as usual. Wow. 

PHOTO: Migratory Bird (taken by specific request by my dad ;)

​What made this event even more interesting for me, was that I actually came to the forest to perform my latest piece, Migratory Bird. I was to show it on an online seminar, as a part of the Exploration into Possible Futures that I am joining as an artist. So, I had with me a huge nest made of twigs (by Anita Silenius) and me, being a bird-human finding a safe space for my nest. 

The whole concept of this piece is that in the future, we need to become more flexible, as many people will most likely need to relocate, due to climate change. That we must not rely on so many material possessions, but to be able to 'nest' where ever we find enough shelter and safety. So, arriving to my 'home' forest, finding my cottage collapsed, it all fit into this concept even too well..!! 

I was to use my little cottage as a shelter in case of rain, when doing the live-streaming from the forest. This was now not possible.... And it happened to rain that day. So, I took my nest and relocated to my late-grandfather's woodshed instead. This is where I performed. And it all worked our perfectly! 

​Complete surrender into what is. 
Not fighting the situation.
Being open for the solutions to present themselves.

Allowing the not-knowing. 
Listening. Following. Welcoming.
Taking new steps in awe. 
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This new life.
Different than I could have ever imagined.
Richer and more full of life in all it's complexity.
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​Blessed be, dear ones. 
I hope your journey is unfolding gently enough..!

If you need support, reach out to me. 
I am here for the greater expansion of us all. 
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​Meri
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