...or the journey of becoming who you truly are.
It has become more and more important for me recently to practice the art of being who I truly am.
It has become one of my main values: to be as authentic as possible.
This seemingly simple idea has many layers.
There are some secrets and deep challenges embedded into it.
What does it even mean, you might ask, to be MORE of who you are -
are you not being yourself already..?
Yes. Yes you are, already being you! I am who I am. However, we are multilayered beings and many of those layers we might not even be aware of. Layers of social conditioning, what has been expected of us. There are layers of the culture we are born into. Ideals of a good life, concepts and structures that have shaped us and how we respond to the world around us.
Who we truly are, then, becomes a little trickier to define! For me it has felt like peeling layer after layer of expectations that I have had for myself. Expectations based on how I have seen myself and the surrounding world. Finding new ways to see this shared reality, I am opening more and more for living in a constant state of unfolding.
I believe we live in a giant sphere of mystery.
The most fascinating layers of 'who I am', for me, are those that exist beyond the social conditioning. Layers that connect me directly with the Earth and with the Cosmic Energies, with the past, present and the future of who I am and who I have been in a deeper way. I believe our intuitive guidance has a much bigger view on our lives and the workings of this world than what our minds are able to grasp.
Through our minds we are able to make some theories
but it is only a limited glimpse into the huge mystery of life in all the galaxies.
We are tiny creatures in the grander view of the surrounding universe.
Then, what is it, to be a human? Being in a state of transformation, letting the intuitive knowing come through to guide the way. Living in the state of wonder and unfolding. It has given me such a deep sense of purpose and belonging, here on Earth, in this Universe.
I believe it is time for us all
to connect more intimately with our inner voice,
our intuitive knowing. Through these turbulent times it is really the most precious guidance system we have!
Through our inner knowing we find a sense of belonging.
Would you like to get more deeply connected with your inner world, your inner voice? I would love to go on this journey of discovery and reconnection together with you! It has been my passion to let more and more healing frequencies come through my voice and now I want to guide you into using YOUR VOICE as a tool of reconnection and energy healing.
On Sunday 3.3. we are starting a 21-day The Power of Your Voice - challenge and you are warmly invited to join! Each day you will receive a 5-10min video that is your practice.
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Ask your inner knowing if this is for you and trust that voice. My deepest wish for you is to find YOUR PATH of highest knowing and least resistance. It is a challenging but beautiful experience to be here as humans and I want to celebrate this life with all it's juicy variety.
Much love to you on this Super Sunny February day!
May Your Uniqueness Shine Bright.
Listening to your inner voice
is a lot like finding traces in the snow and deciding to follow them.
It is about being open to receive guidance.
Trusting the messages and staying in a state of wonder.
The little forest next to our house is full of life. There are many visitors that come to us. The biggest guests I have started to receive more regularly are MOOSE. Yes... there are moose that walk around our house, taking a little bite here and there, of the surrounding trees. It is a rather majestic sight, those huge animals, leisurely walking around and about! (They come in the safety of the dark, so no photos to share, unfortunately).
As I have been admiring the increasing number of animals and their traces, sometimes bringing clear messages, the realisation came to me: in a sense, I am pathfinder. I am here to share the guidance I am receiving, so that many more would find the courage to follow to their own intuition.
I am here to encourage you to honour your inner voice,
to truly, deeply listen and let your inner knowing guide you.
I am here to walk with you into the unknown.
Close your eyes,
take a few deep breaths
and let this
VOCAL BLESSING for 2019 move through you:
Let these frequencies speak to YOUR SOUL.
What awakens within you?
It is beautiful to know that we are connected with supportive energies far beyond our limited understanding! Even though our minds might not be able to grasp how this all works, we can intuitively know. As we connect with our multilayered self the perspective gets wider and the sense of inner peace increases, even in the face of the unknown.
IF you want to read the Intuitive Message for 2019
and DOWNLOAD the Vocal Blessing, you are welcome to
join my mailing list or contact me directly!
I listen to the Vocal Blessing daily and read the message regularly, to keep on track. It is designed to align you with your Core Essence as well as the energies highlighted this year. It connects you with a deeper sense of purpose and gives greater clarity on what you need to focus on, to stay in alignment with your purest essence.
Stay open to receive,
let the path be revealed to you.
From this empowered space within,
you are creating new realities for yourself
and others in this world.
Your uniqueness is a gift,
embrace it, embody it, live it true!
'' I am committed to letting more and more
CLARITY arrive into my life
as I connect with the PURITY of who I TRULY AM.
I PLAYFULLY honour life and the surprises that make it whole. As serious as it is, it's not that serious.''
This year has had a refreshing feel of newness to it for me!! Somehow... there seems to truly be a New Beginning, something I have been preparing for since a few years now. I want to show up even more fully with the gifts I have to share. It is becoming so clear now, how we are here to accelerate each other's processes, to support, encourage and embrace each other through the often challenging times on Planet Earth.
What feels important for you in this year we have just started?
Is something calling you, to step up, to be more of yourself,
to speak YOUR TRUTH and live it fully?
The first quote above is part of my New Year's message that I received for 2019. Surprisingly, I received very 'simple' words for the year! Clarity... Purity... Playfulness. They are asking me to commit even deeper with my inner truth, my soul's true calling. And yet... to remain light about it!
To be both Solemnly Committed as well as Lighthearted.
To be Fiercely Honest as well as Accepting of Differences.
To be Raw and Real and yet... have a silly laugh about it all!!
For me, to be truly FREE, I need to be able to embrace both birth and death, religion and new age, the beauty and the beast of me. I can be both wildly crazy as well as profoundly delicate. And so... it is. And so I am.
Sharing part of a process I am working on, with a visual artist, Pirkko Mäkelä-Haapalinna, whose work resonates with me strongly. Through our collaboration, I am going deep into the themes of religion, what it has meant for people (women!) through the ages and how we commit to things, both human and divine. With Pirkko deeper questions are allowed to exist. The very questions of our existence. The spaces within and between our first and last breath.
The only thing people ever regret in the end,
is living their life according to someone else's wishes.
What is YOUR DREAM, what ever someone says
or what you think you 'should' be going after?
Let my voice guide you into the depths of who you are.
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I am here to speak to your soul.
To awaken the dream you have within you.
Wishing you a reflective, inspired beginning of the year!
Blessings of Solstice and the Full Moon
on the Darkest Night of the Year!
Guided by the Magical Moonlight, what to you feel magnetically pulled towards? What is calling you, your soul? This Full Moon is illuminating the darkest night of the year so that we can see even in the depths of darkness. It is a powerful time for facing your biggest fears, allowing the pain to surface so that we may release the intensity within. Breaking open to be re-discovered by ourselves.
It is a time of releasing the past,
finding gratitude in what has passed
and listening within for the new to arise!
It has been a very intense year for many, 2018. My experiences have been breaking me open time and time again. There has been continuous sense of unraveling who and what I am to recreate myself, over and over again. It has been very hard at times, but whenever I truly, TRULY drop in and listen to my soul's essence, there is always Gentle Grace to surrender into.
If you have ever felt it all simply being too much, you are not alone.
This breaking open to unravel and recreate is what is asked of us now.
With a soft heart I am giving thanks to all the highs and lows, the bliss and the chaos of 2018. It has been an important year and more is being revealed to us as we continue on our journeys.
One of the guiding lights in my life is my amazing daughter Mimi. Almost every day there is a moment when I feel a sense of wonder, as sense of amazement of being her mother. The idea that I am a mother to someone... and that she would be such a glorious, brilliant, sweet and intelligent being! What a miracle! To end this year of revelations on a happier note, I share with you a picture of Santa that Mimi drew. Such a whimsical creature!
Wishing you JOY of Being, Gentle Grace
and a deep sense of Gratitude
on this Holiday Season!
If you want to start your year with Divine Inspiration and Personal Support, I
have created a SOLSTICE SPECIAL for you!
(Available until 6th January 2019.)
With Love, Warm Heart and Radiant Soul,
Are you afraid of the dark?
What does it represent for you?
Have you ever considered that darkness could be healing or benevolent?
This year the darkening season hit me hard. I thought I had conquered my shadows and achieved some state of inner peace, but something felt off and I fell into a mild depression. My mind was confused: where was this coming from and why was I still experiencing this..?!
Even though I have been in the process of honouring darkness and beginning to understand it's importance, there was more to discover. No matter how well we think we know our shadows... we rarely have truly faced all that there is to meet. And.... it is all a part of natural cycles of life! Not something to scare away from but to surrender into for deeper understanding a healing.
It is about time we EMBRACE darkness
as an important force for good.
We need to balance the overpowering energies of continuous striving. Darkness is that feminine principle of non-doing. Pure presence. Being enough, saying: it is ENOUGH now. Enough of consuming, enough of 'making more' enough of believing that 'continuous growth' is an important value above all else.
I invite you to start having a whole new relationship
with darkness and all that it represents.
Continuous striving is part of the sickness we face in our human world and it is hurting us as it is hurting the planet. We know this. And yet... it is hard to embrace that darkness as we have learned to fear it. We have learned to fear the feminine essence and make it 'less than' the masculine. We have been taught that only light is holy and healing. But most of the universe is dark matter. Darkness holds the seeds. In the womb it is dark as well. Darkness is nurturing, if we learn to let it be so and surrender into the healing it offers us.
As a child I loved lying down in the dark of the winter, on the bed of snow, looking far into the starry skies. This filled me with pure wonder and happiness! Such a simple joy with such a profound effect. The snow with it's icy sparks... has always given me such a sense of wonder and magic.
take gentle care of yourself,
celebrate both the light and the dark.
We are balancing the energies here on Earth.
For inspiration you, listen to my Vocal Blessing on FB:
FULL MOON Vocal Blessing
With love, sweet darkness and pure light,
This autumn has gifted us with exceptionally glorious colours. It has felt like nature's way of filling us up with radiant beauty, bright coloured medicine to prepare us for the upcoming dark months. Nature is also celebrating the past season of growth and light. Treasuring the elixirs that sustain life. The trees turn their flow inwards - and let go. Gracefully, to become bare and silent again.
This morning, walking back home after taking my daughter to her kindergarten, I felt the invitation to enter the forest right next to our house. I somehow haven't been there that much, as it is not so easy to enter. It is a bit of a wild thing, not very big, but no paths, lots of moss, untamed growth, tricky terrain. I have already felt grateful and blessed for having this forest as our neighbour, but this morning, I truly fell in love with her... It felt like entering another reality. Very natural and simple, yet so magical and full of variety.
Since we moved here 1,5 years ago, I have felt a new era in my life beginning. So much has shifted and changed. Though I have been on this path for many years already, there is new depth I have been feeling into here.
Time and time again, I have been guided to look closer,
to receive the gifts already present.
To look with profound appreciation and sense of discovery,
even when in my own back yard.
My body felt wonderful, walking in the forest terrain, as it makes all the joints move more creatively than on a steady, flat ground. The scents of decay and hidden treasures. Wisdom of the trees, the intelligence of their communication that we have only now begun to understand. The healing effect of being connected with nature. Becoming more accepting of our own limitations, our cycles, our death as part of life.
''The wonder of birth.
The mystery of death.
Human life, cycle by cycle, around the sun.
Circling into it's own fulfilment.''
I wrote this poem as my farewell to someone I have know most of my life, a father of a really dear friend. He passed away pretty suddenly and was buried recently. On a beautiful autumn day, we gathered together to say our last goodbyes.
To realise that life is a fleeting experience,
is surprisingly easy to forget.
In nature, tuning in with the changing seasons, we see life transforming right before our eyes.
This constant transformation is our nature too.
Invitation for humble understandings of the fragility of life.
We are all growing together, aching together, longing together.
Whether we are aware of it or not.
Feeling into the depth of our collective human sorrow is healing,
as we recognise each other's beauty through our fragility.
Much love and a breath of fresh air from me and my forest friend,
How have these past few months been for you?
Do you feel a sense of newness in your life?
Personally I have gone through a series of deeply transformative passages this past summer. Transformation does not always include any specific ritual or a process, you don't necessarily need to go on an organised retreat, travel somewhere or make any magic tricks. This time, it has been all about BEING PRESENT with what really is there, all that makes life simply and deeply meaningful.
I had been striving to make things happen
in a way that was not completely authentic for me.
Even though I am all about purity, honesty and authenticity, there had been that lurking sense of having to 'make it' - financially, artistically, personally - in some 'bigger' way. Somehow more impressive, more awe-inspiring, more like I was really living the dream I have held dear and true to my heart.
It was not so much about what I was doing,
but that sense of it 'shoulding' be something even more,
that was stressing me out.
It took me some complete time off to release all those false expectations that I had allowed to influence me. It can be really hard to define success in your own terms, to DECIDE for yourself, how the most meaningful and fulfilling life truly looks like and feels like for you, without it having to impress anyone else. And like me, perhaps to simply realise that you already ARE living your dream!
VIDEO: Performing at the exhibition opening at Pentik Gallery in Posio, Finland.
Sculptures by Teuvo Tuomivaara, paintings and video clip by Pirkko Mäkelä-Haapalinna
I have contemplated again on how fragile human life truly is and how desperately we need to redefine what we decide to strive for. We all, as humanity are facing huge challenges. Softness, grace, inner expansion into grounded wisdom. Touching the human heart and soul deeply, is my passion that gives meaning and a sense of purpose for all that I do.
The inner fire has been glowing again
and the compass is set free
to follow my truth:
that purest voice within that is here
to reveal the highest path.
As life would have it, after releasing everything, once again, I feel completely renewed. And, as if by magic, my autumn has been full of creativity, new connections and performing in inspiring venues as well as connecting with friends and family in joyful ways!
So, how do you know you are on the right path for your greatest expansion?
Do you let yourself truly, TRULY decide what YOU need to be happy
and let other’s define it for themselves?
Deep breath in... deep breath out...
Sense how your body feels.
Welcome all the sensations that move through you.
These are times of great release and renewal.
What magic are YOU inviting into your life at this time?
There has been a strong calling for me to spend the summer close to my origins. To live a life of ever greater simplicity. My mother comes from a remote area in Finland where there is a lot of untouched nature. There is silence. Natural purity. There are lots of curious forms in the nature that seem to really come alive as imaginative beings, nature spirits
As a nomad at heart, it has been truly curious to feel like not wanting to travel. This whole year has been a time of renewal and again, this month of July, feels like a sweet surrender into yet another rebirth.
Instead of going 'further' I am invited to keep going deeper.
Receiving even deeper roots, strengthening the physio-psychic
connection with Mama Gaia.
It is also a summer of 3 eclipses. Today, on Friday 13th July (in Europe) at the New Moon there was a Solar Eclipse. It is time to let go of old patterns and balancing the masculine/feminine energies in your life and your ancestral lineages. It is time to CREATE NEW PATHWAYS for your personal and professional self to express it's true essence. You might not see the whole picture yet, but listen in and welcome the insights you are receiving now.
Naturally a sensitive time, it has been sweet to leave time for sensing, being at home, connecting with nature. Barefooted in the sun. Naturally held between the Heaven and the Earth. The Cosmic Connection is open and the Celestial Energies are streaming in. Balancing it all by grounding is very important right now.
Ground your feet, where ever you are - let them touch the Earth.
Transformation is whirling through us.
Stay gentle, stay connected with your body.
Let the emotions wash through you.
It is time for release and renewal.
Tonight I will swim in the river
to let all what needs to leave, be washed away.
With the purity and the clarity of the Nordic Summer,
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Where ever you are in the world - or in your life.
Once upon a time... there was water.
Our very origins. What made life on Planet Earth possible.
For a whole week in the beginning of June, at Art Ii Biennial, we immersed ourselves in water. Water as a metaphor, an element, as the flowing current of our emotional body. Being chosen as one of the artist for Art Ii Biennial 2018, States of Matter, truly felt like an honour and like an important turning point for me personally. My work is more and more about embracing healing practices combined with art. Here, this merging of high quality creative acts with high quality healing frequencies, felt natural and welcome.
The creative process we went through was reflecting the states of water on Earth all too well. Originally our project, titled the 'Bottled Water Exports' was born with my dear friend and performing artist, Kate Gane, from Australia. We would finally get to collaborate! We would first work with art and healing in Finland, then in Australia. This was a vision that would reach around the globe. Kate is a sensitive soul living in close communion with the Earth. And she got ill. As Mother Earth is being polluted and abused by us humans, in the need for shifting our unbalanced actions, Kate's body become a vessel of transformation through cancer. She was unable to come.
Staying energetically connected with Kate to continue from a distance, we got a new collaborator in the mix, a third continent, to come perform with me in flesh and blood. Performance artist Ignacio Pérez Pérez, from Venezuela, currently on strike(!) and living in Helsinki, agreed to jump into the unknown with me. The conditions were different than initially planned. Instead of a few weeks working together, we only got some days. Even as the biennial started we were still finding our way through. Like the empty fortune cookie I got as we ate Chinese for lunch one day, the higher plan was made clear: trust your inner knowing.
The liberation came as we liberated the creative process.
Our collaboration took wing as we let it have free form.
We need to stop trying too hard to actually let magic happen.
The flow of life guides us when we let it breathe and move freely through.
It can truly be magical when this holistic process of life, art,
healing and breathing becomes one.
We got to breathe art and witness beauty.
To be complex humans through simple interactions.
We got to be with water, celebrating it's many qualities and possibilities.
As we are living through such demanding times,
the invisible message from my fortune cookie is truly important.
Please paint this into your heart:
Trust your own knowing.
Trust your intuition.
Trust that you are here for a very good reason,
even when it can be hard to see it
at this very moment.
With so much love and tenderness,
P.S. More professional photos will be coming later. Video clips as well. This blog post shares part of our process with simple images and honest reflections.
Co-creating with nature has been calling me in various forms lately. From gardening to improvising with a human friend, blending in with the soil, the leaves, the moss. We are also working on a whole Art Biennial focused on water. Interestingly, a project where WIND was the main element came also back to me through my news feed recently! Elements galore!!
Six years ago in The Netherlands we worked on a project with kites as instruments, using the element of air for creating sound in various ways. My dear friend and collaborator Frouke Wiarda had invited several artists to design kites as well as composers and musicians to make music with them. I participated in two pieces: one very physical one where I played a kite string, using it even as a weird kind of a microphone. Another with a composer Dyane Donck who composed a piece of music, I Talk To The Wind, from my vocal sounds (pre-recorded and live) and the sound of a kite.
You can sit back and watch the event at Gaudeamus Music Week below!
ON THE VIDEO:
For the pieces I performed, go here:
06:03 ' Windkracht 3': Nico Huijbregts (piano), Frouke Wiarda & Meri Nikula (kite string & voice)
22:55 'I Talk To The Wind': Meri Nikula (voice) & Dyane Donck (composition)
My voice and expression is untamed, as usual..! Using sounds that come from deep within, primordial sounds, moving between the sophisticated and the unknown, the beautiful and the sometimes uncomfortable. It is becoming more and more clear this is part of my work here.
Bringing a very physical approach to singing,
I am here to truly FREE THE VOICES of women and men
as it is symbolic to us expressing our truest essence
here on Earth.
If you ever need some help and support
with connecting with your core and freeing your voice,
I am here for you!
Speak Your Truth.
Stay connected with your core and with nature.
We all need to ground ourselves as the wild wild winds of transformation are blowing across the globe.
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